Sunday, June 13, 2010

bat-tered bendigo...

Good title for another post , wish i'd thought of it! It was the headline in the paper just after i my bat post.

This is what the sky looked like and i was hoping to catch late in the day last week. Isn't it amazing to see them swirling around the clocktower....Either they are on their way out for feed or something stirred them up.
these photos are from the Bendigo Advertiser staff....

cute little faces....

love the see through look and shape of their bodies...

Spoke to Di about the 'regurgitation' too at craft, there were quite few laughs to be had!

Its the long weekend, [Queens Birthday, even though its not!] always one of mixed emotions for hubby and me. On one hand its nice to have 3 days off and i wont go back to work til Thurs as i have meeting on Tues and my day off Wed. woohoo!

I have been painting the kitchen table and here are some peeks...hoping to mask it out tonight and start the fun stuff tomorrow...cant wait to start the actual painting!

And its 20 years ago today that our son Jack was stillborn. I don't know where that 20yrs as gone and i didn't think i would ever get through that first year but thanks to support from family, friends and the SANDS group, i think we both came out the other side pretty well.

Our midwife was fantastic , really ahead of her time and that helped so much with her kindness, validation, and the beautiful photos and clothes she had organised for our little one.
Sometimes i feel like it has happened to another person, it feels a bit surreal but I get his things out and the memories come flooding back.

i only have to look at Lucy to know what he would've looked like, same eyes, round face and dark hair :) no offence Luce!
One thing it has made me is stronger, be more compassionate and really appreciate the two beautiful girls i have now....

I thought long and hard about posting this and will probably still delay hitting the publish button but i need to get this off my chest today. I'm not looking for sympathy, but i think stillbirth is something not talked about much.
Enough said :)

Hubby and Lucy have just gotten back from Castlemaine and they picked these amazing hand carved stamps from the Gallery there.

arent they beautiful...

They are Indian, wooden and about 4-5 Cm's deep, unreal ))) They remind me of the twelve apostles

Might have to have play with them tonight!


jenny said...

Oh Jen what a heartfelt post...I can't imagine what it must be like to have a stillbirth...I am so glad you have some photos and clothes. I know how hard it must be to share something like that but one thing I love about blogging, is the opportunity to share not only the everyday stuff but the things that are near and dear to our hearts as well. The memory of that dear little boy will live on in your heart forever...
Love the pics of the bats especially the transparent image and those hand carved stamps look AMAZING!!
Jenny x

Miek said...

OH WOW ,these stamps are great!
I am curious what your table is going to loke like.
greetz miek

Jayne said...

Have just been to Bendigo with my son and posted pics of the bajillions of bats in the park ;)

Electra said...

You're so loving to share your story, Jen. I wish you peace today.

~*~Patty Szymkowicz said...

Dear Jen ~ thank you for sharing with us. You and Jack have touched my heart so sweetly!

I am trying to imagine the sound all of those bats must be making = Yikes!

Let me know how you make out with your wooden stamps. Those are beauties. I picked up a couple and have not figured out how to get a good image to print with them. So far I've just tried stamping ink.

Sending you and yours BIG warm (((hugs)))
Brightest of Blessings Always!

Fiona said...

Hi Jen, just wanted to stop by and say 'hi'. I have one of those in my life as well - 14 years ago last month. Nice to hear someone mention it so freely and so hearfelt ;)

Debbi Baker said...

For some reason I decided to read a blog tonight and it has been so long since I did this that I had trouble remembering even my own google details so I could comment. Anyway it was obviously meant to be - your post really touched me and while I can't even imagine the grief and loss you have felt I loved two things especially - that you were sharing this with us and that you did so with so much love. My heart and thoughts are with you my beautiful blogging friend.

Margaret said...

A beautiful moving post Jen, someimes it really helps to give these feelings a voice, I'm thinking of you all.
The bat pics are amazing, especially the first one!
I'm looking forward to your table, quite a project! Mx

Dot said...

Jen - you are very brave to have posted about the loss of your son. I cannot imagine how it must have felt (and still feel) to have lost your special boy. Am sending you a extra hug today.
Thanks for sharing the photo's of the bats too. Very interesting. Can't wait to see what you create with those beautiful stamps!
Dot xx

JaN's ArTy AtC JouRneY said...

Oh Jen
Thanks for sharing something so personal, I can't imagine what it is like to have to go through with the loss of a special little boy, my heart and thoughts go out to you and your hubby. Big Hugs!!x x

The pics of the bats are amazing and those stamps are awesome, ...can't wait to see the end results of your table :)

Jan x